Thankfully work has calmed down since my last post. I’m clocking about 40 hours a week again and I’m able to spend more time at home, but I’m also craving horrible, terrible, non-diabetic foods.
For the most part I’ve been able to keep my bread and candy cravings under control, but the other day I walked past the employee lounge and saw the most delicious looking loaves of bread I’d ever seen. I knew I should have just kept walking. I wasn’t even really hungry, but they smelled so good. So I grabbed one, sliced it in half and toasted it with some cheese. It was delicious, and I truly enjoyed every bite, but of course my BS spiked afterwards, stayed high through dinner. For the rest of the day I felt guilty and crappy.
The next day a co-worker brought in a giant tub of Jelly Beans. The old me would have been all over that, keeping a steady flow of jelly beans at my desk throughout the day. This time however, I restrained… a bit. I noticed my blood sugar was trending down and registering at about 107. I could have had a clementine, or a couple strawberries and been fine. In fact I keep a little insulated lunch bag at my desk filled with goodies in case my sugar does start dropping, but no, I grabbed a handful of Jelly beans and watched at my BS shot up.
The other night my husband and I decided to see a movie we’ve been wanting to see for a while, The Grand Budapest Hotel. It was fantastic. Very entertaining and we both really enjoyed it. What wasn’t fantastic though was how much popcorn I consumed. The last time we went to a movie I didn’t know how many carbs were in popcorn so I just didn’t give myself insulin for it. Stupid, I know, but this was also before I decided to take back control of my diabetes and work towards bringing down my a1c. At that point, I didn’t really care. This time I gave myself insulin for 30g of carbs and vowed to not overdo it. That went out the window when I realized I had consumed almost the entire Small popcorn all by myself. Not only that, but my insulin pump ran out of insulin during the middle of the movie. As soon as I got home I changed my pump, but the damage was done. For the rest of the night I was restless, got up to pee about 4 or 5 times and woke up feeling crappy…again.
So yesterday I decided to only eat healthy foods, count every single carb and learn from my small setback. Sean and I both had the day off so we slept in, made a delicious and healthy breakfast of scrambled eggs with green pepper and onion. We relaxed at the beach for a few hours, made chicken sandwiches and brought fruit and water. No candy for me. Dinner was one of my now favorite meals, grilled eggplant with provolone. We had a really great day off together. It felt like a mini vacation, and I feel wonderful.